Little Box of Secrets

Alright...my hair is ruined!! I wanted to get a "Mary-Jane"ish red, so we(me n my cousin) bought hair-color and bleach and other stuff. I can't believe i did it! I can't believe it! My hair is totally f***ed up. I wish I could die(dye XD)... The bleach didnt work properly and we couldn't get a blond color outta my hair. We still got on to coloring it eventhough the bleach was only effective on some parts and my hair was already striped and had uneven blond patches on the top. After the coloring was done, my cousin started laughin and i rushed to the mirror.... Lo and behold! There stood a half-breed "Red Sonja"!!!!!!!!!!!! I can never see the light of day again unless I dye it raven black :(( KILL ME!

Y'know you get that feeling sometimes, when you want something but you think that you dont stand a chance on getting it. This is one of those times that i feel absolutely hopeless about getting what i want.. :( It's just so weird because for a loooong time I've always gotten what I want... But I feel so helpless right now. I want that thing(or person) so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I do i do!!! But I'm not even >this< close to getting it. Help me please?? I havn't told anyone about this little obsession(strange for me because I've always kept my feelings in a glass box). It's like reaching for the stars!!! Well not exactly 'stars' but maybe like trying to make Johnny Depp fall for you, or trying to make Paris Hilton stop partying... Umm whatever, what's the use of even writing this stupid crap when I'm never getting it..(him)...???????????????????????????????????????

6:14am, Im still not sleepy. that's right "a.m"... I'm bored, that's why I created this blog. I'm already satisfied with my Myspace blogs, but lets see if I like this or not. : seriously. I'm going to post a few paragraphs which I write sometimes when I'm bored or when I get inspired(as if that's possible). Some can call these paragraphs "poems", but I don't cuz they're not good enough. I'm a poet in the making XD. Seriously, I'll write at least one book before I die... Be sure to buy it, or else... X__X ummm uhhh... ok then... Ciao! Look out for my posts if you're interested.. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzttttttttttttttttttt XXX signing off!